March 17, 2001
(i dont even bother saying Salaam anymore)
I'm an 18 year old student, I'm studying Financial Services at college
and hope to study Social Science at university next year. Now i like to
think of myself as a freethinker too. I was raised in a very strict
upbringing, my father is a very strict Islamist, he reads all namaz,
carries out all the traditions which they do in Islam and according to
sunnat of the prophet. My mother is a person who welcomes thought, but
has said on numerous occasions that our thinking shouldn't go too far
that we should go out of bounds basically. My brothers are older than me
and I'm the youngest, they agree to our freethinker's view to an extent,
but they are too involved in they're jobs anyway and I don't talk to
Islam with any1 really.
I came to question Islam recently now, it started 2 years ago....this is
when i pledged i would start reading 5 prayers and read Quran with
translation in English.....I bought a book at this point 'the spectacle
of death', lol - much to the terror of my friends who thought id become
a devoted islamist (this still brings a smile to my face). By reading
this book I slowly slowly become to the conclusion that this book was
contradicting itself!!!! its stories weren't accurate. Another thing
that really got me thinking was Islam's treatment of women.
One day i was sitting in the mosque when our Mosque imam read out a
hadith after prayers.....he said something like "All women are
going to hell" he said this after reciting a hadith and that
"a women will take her husband and son, father etc. to hell because
they didn't look after her islamically" now this hadith basically
made me jump and i thought to myself - "how could my mother ever go
to hell???" i was very angry about this. From this day on i never
bothered listening to the imam.....
This imam also brought my dad and his brother to breaking point in
relations, because of an "un-islamic" marriage he claimed.
This was all mumbo jumbo relating with the sunni-shia cause.
thanks for your time,