What we can make of this? We can make two things. One is that Muslims can clearly see that Islam is false. Next is that they are trapped in it. There is a mental block that they can’t get rid of. That mental block is psychological. Miss Ruby can’t cut her umbilical cord from Islam. She thinks without it, she will go to hell. She has not learned to be independent.  

However, Miss Ruby and the Muslim whom I quoted before her and millions of other Muslims who are in their position are only fooling themselves. I know that, because I was there. They are smart enough to know it too. When I read the Quran and saw this is a book of nonsense, at first I started denying my one intelligence.  

You must have heard the joke of the woman who walks into the bedroom to find her husband in bed with another woman. The husband tells her: “Are you going to trust me or your lying eyes?” That very much depends on the woman’s options. If she can walk away she certainly would, but if she has nowhere to go, she will force herself to believe the cheating husband and would put up with any humiliation just as all Muslim women do. They do not have much rights and therefore not many options.  

Muslims have nowhere to go. Everything is taken away from them. They must fool themselves to not lose their faith in Muhammad.  

I thought I am being tested and that I must persevere forcing myself to believe. I hid the book of the Quran behind the other books so I don’t see it. The book was “pulsating”. It was like a sore finger throbbing and sending pulses of pain to me. I tried to read other books and distract myself. I tried to think of only the positive things and forget whatever I had learned. I regretted having read the Quran. I prayed more intensely. But just as you can’t stop thinking about a black dog if I tell you not to think of it, I could not fight back the thought of what I had read.  

I left a message for Miss Ruby and wrote: “You don't believe in any of this nonsense. You can never be the same. Once your brain expands, it will never shrink again. Believe me I tried it for two years because I was afraid to be free but at the end I failed (which means I won). These doubts that you start having will not diminish. They actually will keep multiplying. You'll start doubting even things you had taken for granted all your life. This is how people get enlightened. They suddenly find it is hard to believe in superstitions."  

I knew there is no going back for Miss Rubi. I thought she will be back in a few months telling us she can no longer withstand the lies of Islam and is leaving it. I was very wrong. Despite saying goodbye, Miss Ruby came back after a couple of days and kept talking with the friends. On May 19^th, just one week after saying goodbye and reconfirming her shihadah, she wrote the following:    

And this is what she wrote on May 22, 2006  

Once you learn the truth, there is no way that you can unlearn it. The passage from belief to enlightenment is arduous, but this is the greatest odyssey of our lives. It’s a path we must all take. It’s a lonesome path. It’s a painful and tiresome path. This is the rebirth of intelligence. No birth is without throes. The throes of Miss Rudy’s intellectual rebirth were short. That is because she lives in the West and her life is not going to be endangered. Many Muslims, living in Islamic countries do not have such a luxury. They know that apostasy could mean ostracism, loss of the family and children and perhaps even death. They will try harder to keep their faith in Islam. But no matter how much one tries to deny the truth, one just can’t do it.  

Each person may be hit by a different thing. I was watching a Persian program hosted by a great Iranian, Bahram Moshiri, He educates Iranians and his television show is broadcasted via Satellite to Iran. His theme is Iran and democracy. However the subject of Islam often comes up and that is because today’s political woes of Iran have a lot to do with Islam.  

One of his viewers called from Iran and said that when he talked about Ali not knowing whether he would die or survive after being wounded by a blow of a scimitar, he [the viewer] became “deflated”. This is a slang Persian expression meaning, taken aback, disarmed. It is known that Ali, after being wounded, told his sons that should he die, his assassin should be given a blow of scimitar and put to death, but if he survives he would deal with him personally. Now this clearly shows that Ali did not know whether he is going to die or not. So there goes the Shiite myth that Ali had knowledge of the future. The Shiites are told that there was no secret that Ali did not know and a group of them have gone so far in their lionization of Ali that they believe he was Allah. They are called Ali Allahi.  

There is of course a contradiction here. But millions of Shiites believe in both these contradictory statements and it never occurs to them to put the two together and see that it does not add up. Once this contradiction was brought to the attention of this Iranian, he became “deflated”. Once “deflated”, as Mr. Moshiri also pointed out, no one can inflate this man again with superstitions. He is kicked out of the paradise of ignorance and there is no going back for him.  

Just like birth and death, this is a solitary odyssey. No one can help you in it. However, I have written my own experience and mapped out the terrain for those who have just begun this journey.  

How can I be so certain that Islam’s, days are numbered? It is because I believe in the power of the truth. Truth is extremely powerful. In another article, I spoke of those students in that Islamic country. They became enlightened after their imam threatened them instead of answering their questions. They will enlighten others and others will tell others. You yourself say that you spread the Letter to Mankind to 4,000 people and are spreading it to more people. Many of those whom you helped see the light will do the same. Drops form trickles, trickles become streams and streams converge to torrents. Never underestimate the potential of man and what you as an individual can do. Of course if we want to succeed we need more than a few individuals. We need millions of them. Those millions are gathering and the power is building up.  

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