Awakening at Last
shocked, puzzled and astonished. As Iím writing this, my whole life is
going to pieces. I was born in
and grew up in a very religious family. Now Iím living in the
but I still go to mosque, pray and lead a very religious life. My wife
wears hijab; sheís very religious too. I should have used past tense
whole life was dedicated to Allah and Mohammed. I never thought that it
was possible to leave Islam. Of course I was aware of apostates but I
considered them a bunch of miserable people who would be burning in Hell
for eternity. And a few weeks ago my wife found your site and began to
read your articles. She was shocked. I decided to look through your site
too as my wifeís behavior seemed really strange to me.
Mr. Sina, I have no words. I canít express my feelings because it was
more than just a shock. I think you must know what Iím feeling. I prayed
five times a day, I visited mosque, I didnít take photos of my daughter
and I grew a beard. But today I see the stupidity of all these actions.
I never thought of murdering apostates or non-believers. I knew that there
were some suras about non-believers but I didnít think that they were so
violent. I was ignorant.
my wife went to work (sheís an accountant) without her hijab. She said
she was able to see the world from a different perspective. She says that
hijab was more than just a veil; it was a kind of a wall that protected
her from this beautiful world and made her ignorant and narrow-minded. We
didnít go to mosque last Friday and I donít know what our Imam is
have to move to another town or even state but we donít mind.
Mr. Sina, you changed my whole life. Iím still shocked and canít
understand what is going on but I hope this first shock will pass. Thank
you for opening my eyes.
just have one question. I hope that Bush will do with
exactly what he has done with
. Itís the only way to stop stoning and hanging of innocent people. What
do you think?
Dear M. L.
Your letter brought so much joy
to my heart. Since I have started this campaign, my life has been filled
with sacrifices. This is not work really. No one pays me for what I do and
yet I spend up to 14 hours every day of the week in front of my computer
writing, answering questions, posting articles and trying to spread this
message of peace and hope. I had to shrink my lifestyle to the bare
minimum. When I think about it rationally I say it is stupid. But when I
see how many people suffer, honor killed, stoned, bombed and beheaded on
daily bases in the name of Islam, and how life is filled with misery for a
billion plus people with no escape, I just canít stop. I am not an
important person. I canít do much, but this is what I can do and I will
do my share.
Several years ago I saw a documentary about honor killing. It showed a 16
year old Pakistani girl who was burned by her much older husband because
she was disobedient to him. She was lying on bed in hospital. She could
not speak, only moan. She raised her hand and looked into the camera and
emitted a noise that sounded more like animal than human. Suddenly I felt
she is looking at me and begging me to do something. That image left an
indelible effect on me. She died only a few days later. At that very
moment, I promised her to do whatever I can, no matter how insignificant
it may be, no matter how much it may cost me to stop this madness.
So you can imagine how happy I
get when I receive letters such as yours, and realize that in a small way
I have made a difference. That my sacrifices are bearing fruit. That most
Muslims are decent people filled with humanity and goodness. That there is
hope for mankind and one day we will be all united. Unity of Mankind! This
is such an august project and it feels so good to be part of it. Since
childhood I prayed to be an instrument of peace and now my prayers are
being answered. Thank you for the letter.
Yes dear M.L. The shock will go
away. I went through the shock
and denial too. But unlike you I didnít become enlightened in weeks.
It took me years. The passage from faith to enlightenment was arduous and
painful. What I have tried to do is to create a roadmap and as support
group so others do not have to grope their way in darkness like I did. So
we all can share our experiences and help one another in our struggle to
Welcome to the world of
enlightenment and brotherhood of Mankind.
for Bush invading Iran, I do not think that is a good idea. I don't think
American soldiers should die to liberate any country. But America and
other countries can help the insurgency within Iran, militarily,
strategically and morally. The Mullahs can be overthrown by the Iranians
themselves. This is what I wrote on