I emailed you once back in 2000
when i first bumped into your web site. at that time, it was still a
fledgling entity. my mail to you was short, indicating that i am a
little bit disillusioned with Islam but am afraid to leave it due to
the fear of hell. Like you, i used to be a staunch Muslim. but
little by little, doubts came creeping in.
4 years later, I am not afraid
anymore. i am a through-and-through apostate, and this is thanks
largely to your erudite website.
by the way, I am from
, and our new PM is advocating Islam Hadhari, which essentially
means moderate Islam. To me, his intention is noble, i.e.
promulgating a "peaceful" Islam. but as you said in your
articles, there is no such thing. Most Malayís version of Islam is
simply adhering to the rituals and verbally condemning
and US. Thatís about it. A minority in the Islamic state of
Kelantan are fanatics. I also share your sentiment when you say that
the spiritual Muslims are those who do not follow Islam to the
letter, but more on the rituals to make them "feel"
religious. Example is my parents, who are good people, pray 5 times
a day (my dad does more, with all the tahajjud,
, ishtikarah), fast, pays zakat, goes to mekah. Like so many Muslims
out there, they turn blind when it comes to the unsavoury parts of
But i agree with you on your
comparison of Islam's passive/non-enlightened followers to the
Germans in World War II. Their indirect support if Islam
strengthened it. So, I am doing my part to eradicate this ideology,
albeit in a subtle way.
My wife is the first to leave,
followed by 2 friends, this site being the guide. I am making sure
my daughter will not be victimised too. I also emailed your website
to a few newspaper editors, who, not surprisingly, tried to advise
me to "return to the true religion".
But the hardest part is that Muslims
are all around me. to avoid being arrested and imprisoned or
re-oriented, I pretend to be a Muslim. For how long I don't know,
since I feel like exploding and telling all my friends and
relatives, you people are benighted!!
The hardest part is to pretend
in front of my parents, who as I said earlier, are very religious.
to tell them that I am an apostate would literally kill them. When I
go back to their place, I will pretend to pray. What do you think I
Please keep up this noble work
that you are doing and do not be discouraged by the fanatics hurling
abuses. Know that there are people like me supporting you all the