From J H

Below is my article that I wish to submit, and I hope you do consider submitting it, or at least reading it. I suppose I chose FF as a means of professing my atheism because it’s a site that has aided me on my journey, as has wikiislam (an ally of your site, I think?) and various others. Thank you for that. If this is published, I only ask that you keep it anonymous (I don’t want Muslims showing how ‘peaceful’ they are to me). I’m not sure on the procedure of article submission, but could I receive a reply e-mail if this is published, if that’s not too much trouble? Thanks again.



As I sit and type this article, it is — as you probably know– Ramadan; and I, a fifteen-year-old Muslim (though I dare say that such a label is as accurate as calling a fifteen-year-old Marxist because his/her parents are), am once more starving myself for around fifteen hours (everyday for a month) for some non-existent gain. I am weak, degenerated and a ripe summer passes — almost teasing me– whilst I live a sedentary life due to low energy. And yet ironically, at a time when zealous clerics (though zealous is superfluous) expect a rise in religiosity, I find myself becoming more militantly atheist. But my faith has never been incredibly strong: So here is my journey…

My alienation from Islam was ever-so-slightly nurtured when I first entered mosque; I suppose it was around the age of six, or seven. The place was a cold, depressing confine of monotonous recitation and oppression. Beats and shouts were regular (though I was fortunate enough to not endure most of them, for I was fairly quiet), and the F word–fun– was strictly forbidden. And there before me was a book with abounding letters and marks that I didn’t understand, nor did I care to. But there was no choice. At this stage, I hadn’t lost my faith; but then, I never really had it. Young boys don’t care for religion in the same way that they don’t care for political ideologies, philosophical doctrines and economic theories. But gradually, I became angry at being forced to attend this wretched institution. I didn’t want to sit for ten hours before an alien book and an equally alien teacher: I wanted to practice riding my bike, play. But then we were taught about Hell, the vanguard of adherence to Islam…

|’Devilish minions shall pour hot lead into the ears of music-listening kuffar!’|'If a single word be repeated incorrectly whilst reading the Koran, you shall be punished!’|'The Day of Judgement is coming!’|'You will burn!’|'You will scream!’

And ad infinitum.

I still hear these threats today, as clerics admonish mosque-goers of the ‘decadent’ society that they live in (why did you move here again?). I found it to be petty and akin to bullying. It was psychologically damaging. Every action engendered evaluation as to whether it was sinful and there was constant guilt. And it took away the supposed majesty and credibility that Muslims proclaim to be present in Islam: God is the supreme architect, the supreme physicist, the supreme mathematician, the supreme engineer–he is supposed to be the most enlightened being, above all progressive systems. And yet, this supreme entity doles out a punishment so primitive, petty, unfair, retributive. It’s the sort of primeval ideal that’d be thought of by, say, bronze-age patriarchs (or a deluded, plagiarizing merchant in primitive Arabia). And why would this deity require his subjects, whom he created, to grovel him five times a day, and make ineffectual prayers inside sumptuous mosques that paradoxically chides the West for its materialism? And why does he hold such a fixation on the Middle East? What of the poor peoples in Australia and the Americas, burning in Hell despite not knowing about the religion?

As a teenager, I was also embarrassed at the desperation of Muslims around me to affirm Islam’s superiority: Virtually every favorable celebrity ostensibly converted to Islam–and my friends took great pride in that. I was also appalled by their veneration for Eastern despots like Saddam Hussein; twisted lunatics like Bin Laden; and their agreement that people like Salman Rushdie should be dead. So, regular massacres of innocent civilians are fine because the perpetrators are Muslim, but let woe befall a man who printed some words — damn words! And the funny thing was, most Muslims around me embraced Western culture. They enjoyed music, many smoking, drinking, watching lewd material and dancing. But come Ramadan and they renounce those things and conjure a visage of piety. I think this contrast of extremes surges their desperation, and sees the transpiration of guilty, young men who’ve been indoctrinated into extremist (or should I say proper?) Islam, going on to commit terrorism. Not a single moral that I, or any other Muslim I knew, held was due to faith.

But the final strike of the hammer came when I delved into the personality of our beloved prophet. A man of peace, bringing God’s word, conducted war? He married a nine-year-old at fifty (many Muslims would cringe if they heard of this in the news now, only then to exonerate Muhammad: If this was customary of the time, why should anything of Muhammad be practiced, considering it’s all archaic?), he was an anti-Semite, he ordered killings, he twisted history, he was a misogynist and a hypocrite.

To be honest, it’s all very reminiscent of a totalitarian state. People often conflate atheism with such regimes (citing Stalin and Mao as examples) but it is fundamental faith that is more Orwellian, autocratic and despotic. There’s Big Brother, or Allah; only the Koran may be read, whilst all other forms of media are censored or outright banned; dissent is brutally quelled; continual war is propagate until the whole world is subjugated; there is no proper art; sex is proscribed as is identity. I honestly wish to witness a day when this cruel, depressing ideology is vanquished.

That’s my story. I’m a closet atheist who awaits the day when I’m emancipated and can continue my life without hindrance. I still have a great deal more to experience, but thanks for listening.

Short URL:

Posted by on Aug 9 2012. Filed under Apostates of Islam. You can follow any responses to this entry through the RSS 2.0. You can skip to the end and leave a response. Pinging is currently not allowed.


  1. DUI

    Thanks-a-mundo for the blog.Really thank you! Awesome.

  2. Hey, thanks for the blog article.Thanks Again. Really Cool.

  3. Major thanks for the blog post.Really thank you! Awesome.

  4. Thank you for your blog article. Awesome.

  5. Enjoyed every bit of your blog.Much thanks again. Really Cool.

  6. I am so grateful for your blog.Really looking forward to read more. Want more.

  7. A big thank you for your blog article.Really thank you! Fantastic.

  8. Hey, thanks for the blog article.Really thank you! Want more.

  9. Say, you got a nice blog post. Really Cool.

  10. I think this is a real great blog. Will read on…

  11. Really appreciate you sharing this article post.Much thanks again. Want more.

  12. Im obliged for the blog post.Thanks Again. Great.

  13. Fantastico aporte, buen estilo. Me has ayudado mucho. Gracias

  14. I value the blog article. Awesome.

  15. Very informative blog. Really Great.

  16. Really enjoyed this blog post. Much obliged.

  17. Im obliged for the article.Really looking forward to read more. Really Great.

  18. Great, thanks for sharing this article.Really looking forward to read more. Really Cool.

  19. I really enjoy the blog article. Great.

  20. Great blog.Thanks Again. Fantastic.

  21. wow, awesome article post.Much thanks again. Great.

  22. Really nice website, definately admire the colors, thanks so very much for the effort you take creating your posts. You probably receive a lots of traffic.

  23. My brother suggested I might like this blog. He was totally right. This post actually made my day. You cann’t imagine simply how much time I had spent for this info! Thanks!

  24. This is one awesome blog post.Really thank you! Will read on…

  25. Great, thanks for sharing this blog article.Much thanks again. Much obliged.

  26. Very good blog article.Thanks Again. Great.

  27. Sites of interest we’ve a link to

  28. Really informative blog article.Really looking forward to read more. Much obliged.

  29. Thanks again for the article.Really looking forward to read more. Fantastic.

  30. I think this is a real great blog.Much thanks again. Really Great.

  31. I truly appreciate this article.Really looking forward to read more. Much obliged.

  32. Say, you got a nice blog post. Great.

  33. I cannot thank you enough for the blog.Thanks Again. Cool.

  34. always a significant fan of linking to bloggers that I like but really don’t get a whole lot of link really like from

  35. I cannot thank you enough for the blog post. Really Great.

  36. Hey, thanks for the blog.Much thanks again. Awesome.

Leave a Reply


Log in | Designed by Freedom Bulwark Networking