Who knows Where the Truth Lies?

T.D.

It was early in this year when i embraced Islam, and confusion along with it. I'm young and naive. I believed in the proofs that has been shown to me, but there were some aspects of islam that I didn't agree with. I didn't voice my feelings, because I felt that God knows best, and who am I to disagree with Him. I sacrificed things that meant a lot to me out of fear and love for God. I sacrificed music, friends, and almost gave up on my family.

I was suppose to meet up with  a muslim brother with the intentions of marriage. Of course my parents and family had no idea what was going on. My family  knew that i was a muslim, but they didn't know that I was already thinking about marriage. Honestly, I am not ready for any of that. I'm young and haven't experienced life yet. It scared me, but Hell scared me more. I felt I had to marry for God's sake. Before my mom left for the mainland, she found out that I was suppose to meet him. She found out that he flew from his place to meet me here. Turns out I didn't meet up with him.  

I broke down that day. I talked with my uncle and connected with my family. They have and still support me through my tough times. To think that I almost gave them up, the people who loves me the most, scares me.

Within the past months I've learned a lot about religion. As of right now I'm not ready for it. I will always believe and love in the Heavenly God. Who knows where truth lies? I don't. May God see my good intentions and downfalls. May He see what comes from my heart. Take care and peace be upon us all. God Bless-

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